I will Write

1. Reach Out
2. Be Thankful
3. Live your Passion
4. Make Do (Be Content)
5. Enjoy the Simple Pleasure

Source: http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/sex/5-habits-of-the-happiest-couples-i-know-1145478/

I visited my aunt’s place last March 1. When I arrived my aunt is with my youngest niece AJ. She is one year old. She is one of my cousin’s children whom I love most. Unfortunately she barely sees me so she does not recognized me at all not like her kuya and ate whom I have taken care when I am still staying in La Union. She likes me though. She lets me carry her and play with her.

I remembered in Christmas when I visited them during our Family reunion I was carrying her while dancing and I later noticed that she fell asleep with it. I was so happy. Hehe.

Later that day during my last visit we were playing then she would ask me to sit beside her in their altar. Then while we were playing I started telling her “Tita”. And so I repeated “Tita” while she just smiles and runs around the house. And after awhile she said “Tita” while laughing and looking at me. And so I clapped and told her “Ang galeng galeng ni naneng.” Then I started to tell my name “Ricci”. I wanted her to remember me though she barely sees me just like her siblings. I did the same thing of repeating my name. After her listening to me even if she runs around and play she said “Sissi”. That is how children often remember my name.

I was so happy.

I hope this Holy Week she’d remember me.

I was happy she learned to speak Tita Sissi. And I will always remember how I did it.

Pain

Hurt

Tears

Hopeless

Worthless

Useless

Guilt

Lost times

I can no longer sleep without shedding tears. What have I done to deserve this feeling?

I have my own flaws but I’ve changed.

1. 0101 - After my shift I went home immediately. I spent 6-7 hours in the bus. I arrived in La Union at around 7 PM. I visited the fair in our City Plaza. I’d love to buy a new sandal but I haven’t got enough cash. So I went to buy and eat street foods (pancake, isaw and BBQ) along with my younger brother. I ate again when I arrived home. I ate Igado, Pinapaitan, Isaw, BBQ then for dessert it’s my mom’s macaroni salad. Nyiaks. I ate a lot that day.
2. 0102 - I went back to the city to accompany my mom do her shopping and in the afternoon I visited Shen, one of my closest friend. I had a lil chat with her and visited their piggery.  When I went home my mom ask me to do the cooking. We ate together. That was a fun day.
3. 0103 - Stayed at home. Finished all the chores then watched “It Started with a Kiss”. I spent the day watching and sometimes chat with my mom. I love my mom. I miss my pop because he always go to work I barely have time to chat with him but I did on Christmas eve. I was happy then. At night I helped my brother with his Thesis.
4. 0104 - I went to the city to process some papers for my parents. Opened a new savings account. I have to. :)) Ate burger from Midtown went home and continued watching “It Started with a Kiss”.
5. 0105 - I went back to Manila for work.
6. 0106 - I did my old routine of going home, eating, sleeping, waking up, eating, preparing for work, sleeping at work, waking again to work, then to go home after shift.
7. 0107 - Same old routine.
8. 0108 - Same old routine.
9. 0109 - Saturday. Rest day. I accompanied Ate Lein to go to Nokia’s Care Center to have Sir Ron’s phone be fixed. She treated me in KFC, it was a Full Loaded Meal. Paid our Electric Bill at SM Cubao. I did some window shopping since I don’t have enough yet. Went home called my family and ended watching the TV since they are doing their afternoon siesta. Waited for papa to wake up so I can text him. Stayed late at night trying to watch “They Kiss Again” on Deo’s laptop. I slept at around 2 AM in the morning. * Just want to add, the land issue started again. Hayz. This is what makes my mom and pop worried. I hate that filthy old man.
10. 0110 - Woke up at 8. I ate my breakfast, did my laundry then cleaned our Kitchen sink. I also cleaned my toenails. I was not feeling well because of my runny nose accompanied with sinusitis. I watched TV then took a bath at around 11 then went to sleep at 3PM. Woke up at 7 just to watch StarStruck. Ate dinner, watch TV and decided to watch another DVD but I ended playing. I slept at 1AM.
11. 0111 - I was not feeling well so after eating breakfast and watching “They Kiss Again” in Studio 23, I went to sleep at 12 NN. I took my medicine before sleeping. I woke up at around 4PM and was then difficult to go back to sleep. I was able to text papa and ask about his condition because he had difficulty breathing last night. They ended in the hospital again only to find out that he was full that caused his difficulty of breathing. Was able to sleep again at around 6 PM and woke up at 8. I ate dinner then went to the office to continue sleeping since my shift starts at 3. I ended borrowing Ver’s blanket since I am also having a fever.
12. 0112 - Nothing new for this day. Spent the same old routine. Went to Cubao to buy some necessity. It was a good day for me and papa. Thank you so much papa.

My first 12 days of 2010 was not really that worthwhile. Aside from my old routine I was happy to spend most of it with my family and that what makes it.

Hoping that 2010 would be better. Thank you Father for the days and the coming days. Always make my family healthy. I also hope that papa will recover this year and be able to spend time with him. I love you!

But I realize I am no longer that same person who have the right to do so.

Why not?

I no longer understand people the way that I understood them before.

I am no longer the cheerful person who can listen to everyone’s angst.

I no longer have enough wisdom to share.

Just my two cents:

“Live life to the Fullest and be Happy with what you have.”

“Life has a lot to offer, grab it if an opportunity comes.”

“Love inspires and it should not hurt.”

Your used to be cheerful friend, Ricci.

I am missing this side of me.

Am I too desperate for a kiss? My thoughts are twisted but I am able to remember the term that I would like to describe how I am feeling. Am I really desperate? Maybe. Why should I see him in my dream and ask for a kiss again? Poor me for watching “It Started with a Kiss”, now I am longing for a Kiss.

I remembered, it started with a kiss after all, when I lost everything.  No more reminiscing.

I surrender.

This is a Hate post.

Do not read.

“A Judgment is accepted only if the person judging you have done so much for you to deserve it”.

No matter how successful a person can be, that is not enough reason to look down on others.

People are facing their own struggles in life.

I am not a perfect person.

I specifically don’t have the so called “PR”. Sorry, you misunderstood my actions. I am still standing with both my feet on the ground. I am not proud nor too proud of myself. I haven’t done so much for my family. I still have a lot of things to do to prove myself worthy of anything.

Eight months have passed.

You humiliated me. I am sorry but at this moment, it never occurred to me that someday I will forget what you have said that day. I still do not understand how you just involved my father with your hate for me.

“Do not and do not ever belittle my father nor mother again…”

Insult me.

Belittle me.

Look down on me.

But please, spare my parents and my family from your Ruthless but Useless and Bias judgment.

They Don’t deserve it.

;sabunot;

oh yeah! haha frustrated artist ako…

i like to sketch…

i like creating house plan… (house plan lang namin pala :D)

i love checking house plan magazines. what i love most is japanese interior design pati na rin furnitures nila. it’s so simple.

i would like to paint, kaso ala akong galing sa color combination. since i lack the skill i just collect my friends artwork and keep them.
di ba frustrated talaga? nyahaha. in time. i shall learn it and be able to improve.

weeee in time ang peys ko. i am already 23. do i still have enough time? oh yeah?!? malayo pa ang 40th birthday ko. i still have 17 years to go. way to go ;party;

;sabunot;

thank you for arguing with me today. that is something rare for you to do. even if you are so sick, it was stupid of me to argue with you. but hey, you argued back and i love it. not that i love arguing with you but the thing is you are able to tell me your opinion. you even called me even if it was hard for you to speak.

you always bring the light in my darkest hour.

i haven’t been sleeping because i have been thinking about your condition. you do not know how awfully sad i am if you are not texting or calling.

get well, aiyt? this is a promise that i should keep.

Weee after four weeks I was able to spend my weekend here in Manila. It was unusual.  Hehe. I got out of work at 9:00 am. Went to Metrolane complex to run an errand for my bro. I bought another satellite box for the big satellite dish I guess that me and my bro have set-up. I will be bringing it when I get backhome so hindi kailangang i-waybill sa Partas since hindi din tatanggapin. After that I have spent my time sa supermarket. I needed to buy stuffs that I needed sa boarding house. I went to look for the BeackWalk slippers first sa second floor ng SM Cubao and sadly ala na naman. So I went sa groundfloor para mamili ng grocery items that I needed. Pababa palang ng escalator amoy ko na mga pagkain dun. Nakakatakam. At ang nakita pop-corn, bread, hotdog, shawarma at marami pa. Haha. Antagal ko na nagpipigil kumain ng mga gusto kong kainin. Hindi dahil sa diet kundi dahil bawal. Haha. Nway ndi ako nagddiet. Una blue basket lang ang kinuha ko but hey maluwang ang supermarket so I asked sa mga assistant ng trolley. What’s in my basket?

- Laundy Powder

- Fabric Softener

- Alcohol

- Tissue

- Facial Cleanser

- Shampoo

- Headband

- Nail Polish

- Pineapple Tidbits

- Milk

- Puto Seko from Bulacan, special mention kasi I have been looking for a Puto seko na gawa sa Bulacan and I finally have one.

- Yum yum

- Mars chocolate

Ayun lang daw ang laman ng basket ko. I wanted to buy more sweets kaso ala na sa budget. I was so glad I saw BeackWalk slippers sa supermarket. Sadness out of budget talaga ako. Pati ala iyong size ko na gray ang kulay. Black lang. Siguro next weekend I’ll purchase one kahit iyong black na kasi iyon lang iyong kulay na may size 6. After ko mamili ayon bumili din ako ng Shawarma. Haha at kailangang iyong small lang. Ala pa akong breakfast that time. Hindi ko iyon kinain dun syempre. Messy kainin eh kaya sa bahay ako kumain. After nun naglaba na ako. Onti lang aman iyon taz dumating na boardmate ko. Buti may kasabayan akong nagRD sa bahay. Iyon we planned to go out para maginternet. At bakit ko kailangang mag-internet?

I MISSED DOUMYOUJI!

So we decided to get a lil sleep muna bandang 5 pa kami lalabas. Kaso ayun “talo” (expression ni OT) 8.30 na kami gumising kinagabihan. Gumising lang para kumain. Bumili kami ng Porsilog. Yummy. Taz syempre kelangan namin ng Vit. C. Binuksan namin iyong isang Pineapple tidbits at isang bag ng raisin. ;rahrah; After nun syempre no time to go out na so we slept the whole evening. Tig-isa kami ng kwarto. Syalan. Kami lang kasi may RD.

Sunday morning. Naglinis ako ng bahay. Yehey! Ala talaga akong magawa. After cleaning the house, I cleaned my toes and applied my new nail polish. After nun I cook our breakfast habang iyong boardmate ko naglalaba. Wow, cook daw. LoL. Nagsaing lang ng bigas taz pritong hotdog. Ang saya saya. Brunch na iyon kasi alas-onse na ng kumain kami. Ayun naexcite daw ako tungkol ke Doumyouji. I started to Love him na. Hehe.

Ayun three hours kaming nag-internet. Ala na akong magawa after nun so I read iyong Bob Ong book ng boardmate ko, “Ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas”. I have so much worries lately. Marami dun ang sinagot ng libro. Ano man ang worries ko at ano man ang sinagot ng libro. Good luck na lang sa akin. But yeah, a lot of people may do the same thing. Basahin mo para malaman mo kung san dun ang pdeng gawin ng karamihan sa atin.The day ended so well though alone inside. He is missing.

Ayon that’s how I spent my weekend. I missed my mom and pop. I just saw them sa pics na lang sa phone ko. I love them both as well as my brothers. And him. Mwuah!